ARGH!

This has been a terrible week. I have become as a terrible student. Life in general is terrible. I decided not to go home for fall break (even though my parents offered to buy me a ticket) because I knew I had a lot of work to do. So I worked. I practiced aural skills and spent an hour a day on the dreaded Mac Gamut--an ear training software we use in our theory course. I also slept a lot, because the unfortunate fact about being a singer is you CAN'T just stay up all night practicing, (or out all night partying) because it will ruin your instrument. So I was relaxed I felt ready for the week and prepared for the big, scary things that were coming. A hearing (something that strikes fear in the hearts of music students everywhere). The Rogers concert (probably the biggest deal concert the music department has...also the only one the president of the college attends, for some reason I have agreed to sing an ridiculously hard avant garde Ives piece---why? I have no idea) . Also...the musical? Supposedly we're supposed to be off book because now is the time for serious polishing. Um, wait a second, how can we polish scenes we haven't blocked? Apperantly the director is a kind of fly-by-the-seat-of his pants type. This can be fun, its fun improvising sometimes....but every scene? Four hours a night? This is not fun. I hate when professors aren't prepared for class because I AM, and they are getting paid to do this! This is incredibly frustrating. I have no idea what I am doing acting-wise (because hey, I'm a musician). Also I fell like I am failing all of my classes, I keep on making silly mistakes on theory homework and I failed a math test. This is very unlike me and I don't know what to do! ARGH!